I am in transition. I am conflicted. I am frustrated and worried and alone. I am hidden. I am a secret even from myself. I am proud and disappointed, looking forward and regretting something for the first time. I have had an experience here. And despite everything, I'm going to miss it. Miss Spanish class with Colin and being real with people. Miss Hannah. Miss Isabel. Miss Annie and Teddy and people who I've just seen around. Miss Rachel and making a home in this strange place. Making a big decision; doing it on my own. Loving Nate. So, so much. Being scared and sure and so unsure.